I’m weak. I’ve been defeated. Broken.

I’ve lost her, and she’s just fucking around with all the people she knew I was jealous. She’s burning all the land around me, and never looking back. She, who swore to been always there for me. To be always the first to rise a helping hand. She hates me. She despises me. And I can’t do a damm thing, cause I just can’t stand her.

I can’t see her. I can’t think about her. It hurts. Hurts so much I just want to chug down some Diazepan and vodka and just let it end.

I want to end this. For real.