Long time since my last post. By the way, it wasn’t supposed to be something regular, just some kind of exercise of self-something to keep my mind clear. It worked well, last times, so here I go again.
Things at work are not Ok. In fact, things are going south at work, on the speed lane and no brakes at all. I thing the exact world is “Decimated”. Not literally, of course, but sort of: Lot of people have been fired. Lot of friends. The office is like a ghost ship or something, and the rest of us feel like we were fighting in the trenches, in the middle of the night, with our own bosses bombing us from the safe back line. We’re exhausted, sad, tired and fearing the future.
Boss said “we may try to keep on”. Then she take holidays. One month off. Yeah, “we” means “you”, “keep on” means “break your spines working for almost nothing”. And we will see in september if they close the business or sell it to someone else. “Deadline” in all the concept, at least for this work.
I don’t know what to do. I keep working, I can’t do less than I’ve been doing all this 9 years. I can’t compromise more. I can’t work harder. I can’t try to make it better anymore.
I don’t know how to do anything else. This job is what I’ve been doing all my life. I’m sad, I’m tired, and I keep doing it the best I can (The best the let me do it).
The worst part is the hopelessness. We, the workers, can’t do any more. Is just impossible to do anything more, anything better. We reached our physical and psychological limits long time ago, surpassed they and keep pushing. There’s no midnight oil to burn.
Few people make the wrong decisions, and we all are gonna pay for that.